Everyone Should Start Their Day With Gogol Bordello

Oy. Not to put too fine a point on it, the last couple weeks sucked. It's been all poop, all the time.

I'm starting to recover. I think I finally cleared the last hurdle when I decided to listen to Start Wearing Purple this morning. Definitely puts life in a new perspective. I think that'll be my new morning ritual. Possilby anthem is not too strong a word.

So ... I'm re-psyched about the Tolkien quilt, because one of my good mooter friends, Byron, has generously agreed to let me use some of his awesome Tolkien-inspired artwork as quilting designs. I'm hoping to get to work on that this weekend. (I'm learning to feed the right wolf, Byron ... thanks man!)

All the Tolkien discussion on the group also prompted me to go dig out my copy of Book of Lost Tales, which I got a long time ago but never read. So every night before bed I spend some time reading in that book, and oh ... bliss. Escape to Middle Earth. Really what I needed just now.

Some major changes are in the works. I've decided to cut back on the time I spend at my dad's, or at least seriously rearrange it. I have to at least get my weekends back, so I'll not be going over on Saturday anymore (after this weekend; pre-made plans there with my brother for this weekend). I know he'll be disappointed, but ... I have to draw some lines somewhere before I implode. I'll still be going over either 3 or 4 nights a week to make him a freshly-home-cooked dinner, and I'll make sure he has something on the weekends (as well as my day or days off during the week, like always) to heat up easily in the microwave for dinner. I'll still handle all his medications, and anything else he needs done ... just not on the weekend. He's got to understand ... I know a lot of people go spend time with family on the weekend, instead of avoiding it like I am. But I spend almost every weeknight over there, so ... I've got to have some quality time at my house for awhile. Mostly because nothing's getting done around here, and with warm weather finally here (YAY!) I'll be needing to do yardwork (BOO!). Either way (yay or boo), it's what I gotta do.

Besides, I figured whole weekends off and to myself - two whole days - ought to go leagues towards improving my mood, outlook, and energy. Whether the yardwork gets done or not.

There are other areas of my life that need some serious remodeling as well, but I think for now I'll keep quiet about those, and just ... watch and wait, as Gandalf said.

And other than that, I'm slowing clawing my way out of the bottomless pit of poo - no offense to "the" Poo, of course, who is doing wonderfully well, by the way - another yay point. He's had his stitches out and recovered completely with nary a hitch. And hopefully I'll be back to posting boring blather here real soon. I bet you can't wait.